(via nicolerenee)
I really do adore my life. Yes, there are certain aspects of it that I enjoy less then others but the love, strength, & faith within my family completely out ways the difficulties and struggles we go through on the day to day. Even though I’m beyond wanting to give up and I’m severely stressed out right now, I know that we’ll make it through this & become stronger as a whole. Everything is going to work itself out and it’ll all be better soon!
And I finally know
Your crime is your pride and your past is my only ghost
I’m going crazy out of my control
But there’s nothing I can do, I have no choice but to let it go
Each day gets a little less intense
I no longer feel like there’s someone standing on my chest
You made me more me, and I won’t forget the times you helped my find my feet
When I was buried in my head
Thank you, for giving what you had to give
Taking what you had to take,
And making me believe in you.
Even though I might be gone forever there will always be a place in my brain that will think of you.
You look so graceful when you’re flying
Keep going, there’s a lot of world that you haven’t seen,
You have my best wishes, even if only in silence, you deserve everything that you’ve ever dreamed.
The snow melted right when the smoke cleared,
I turned love inside out a thousand times trying to see if it was ever anything more than the will to persevere,
but the two go hand in hand, the clouds surrounding you eventually will clear.
I can breathe I found contentment in the end,
Telling a god I don’t believe in to go to sleep so I can think again.
We went through thick and thin,
Came out separate on the other end,
But please know no matter what you’ll always have me as a friend.
My fiance left me yesterday & he took my daughter with him. After 7 hours he appologized & asked for forgivness. I laughed
This is my ex-girlfriend (left) and I. This was taken during school, which explains our friend studying in the back. In the classes we took together, I never did very well. When she was in the room, it was hard to focus on anything else.
Explaining the love I carried for this girl is hard to do. She was not only my best friend, but my girlfriend, and we were together every single day. For eight months, she was my everything, all I needed. We ended up separating ourselves from everyone else, and lived in our own world. Our friends and parents criticized our relationship constantly. No one understood our relationship; they just saw it as unhealthy. Because together, we set the world on fire. We only cared for each other, disregarded anyone else, and we never failed to get into trouble. My mother said we had a ‘Sid and Nancy love’. We laughed and agreed, and from that day she always called me Sid. And she was my Nancy.
After one night of big trouble, her guardian moved her away from me. We couldn’t see each other anymore, no matter how hard we tried. I felt completely empty and was convinced I was dying without her. We struggled to keep our relationship going, but the distance killed us. There was so much jealousy and loneliness that made us realize we couldn’t make this work. My heart was broken and it would take months and months to stitch it back.
Over time, everything healed and we got on with our lives. Today, she is engaged and is planning on starting a family. I’m with someone who makes me happier every day. But no matter what, this beautiful girl will always have a space inside my heart. No matter what anyone said, the eight months with her were perfect to me. She showed me what love was, raw and unruly. She gifted me with compassion, kindness, and the pleasure to call her my own. Waking up to her face, her beautiful smile, always blew me away. No matter what, I will love her awfully, forever. Nancy, I’ll always carry your heart. Thank you for all you gave me.
I still mean every word.